musings

Today while I was reading my friends blog about sledding a thought occured to me....why do adults not go sledding? Why don't we set up evenings for this event much like we would plan any other event with our friends? It is great exercise and so much fun that you don't freeze! It really isn't that cold when you are running up and down a hill with a tobaggan slowing you down.

Well, that and the nice cocoa with some amaretto or peppermint schnapps would certainly make a cozy event. I would rally my friends but I feel I know the answer from just about all of them. Certainly there are a couple that I know would be down with it but otherwise I think I would get the 'I'm too old' or 'I don't want to get all wet' or some other lame excuse that we would never accept if a child said it. Oh well. Maybe soon.

In other news, I have gone over two months without CUTTING MY HAIR! How fascinating, i know. It truly is a big deal to me because i can normally not handle not changing things up. I did get it colored and highlighted on my birthday but not chopped! Well... I did get the mullet trimmed off...but that was necessary and does not count!

As I only have 4 hours until it is time to go home for the weekend, I really must find something to do that will keep me busy but not hurt my brain. This whole week has seemed like it has lasted well, two weeks! I just want to sleep without an alarm going off. That is it. Just a little lie in! You know, like 7am woud be nice. Granted I will certainly sleep longer than that, as Jake would vouch but my point was made....

I can't believe I have written so much about nothing, I think i will stop it for now until my thoughts have a clear direction! Happy Weekend!

So work has been altogether interesting lately. As I have become more a part of the 'group' I have been privy to all of the bullshit. I'm not so sure I'm excited about that. Rumor has it, if my newly instated boss can't clean up her predecessor's mess we could be outsourced. Okay, not 'we' but our department. That wouldn't be too promising for me. Although I know that my boss likes me, finding 30 jobs within our company probably won't happen. Due to my lack of any corporate experience, I could really be in trouble. I'm not sure and at this point it is just rumors. The only upside would be unemployment checks and maybe being home while with a baby. That would probably be too convenient and then I would never want to go back to work. No thanks, I'll take the job.

On another note, February looms ever-nearer and the thought of babies is exciting and then scary. I was at Target with Jake the other day and bought a book about what to do if you are trying to get pregnant. I know the most obvious answer but I figured that if we are going to plan it, then I should do everything in my power to either prepare my body or make it a little healthier. Such as my recently renewed lust for cigarettes. OUT! We have decided that today we are quitting for real. I am not too sure about Jake but I really really want to stick with it! I will never be a smoker whilst pregnant but I don't want to have it as a lifestyle right now either.

I told myself that I would not tell everyone on earth that we are going to try but I can't help myself. I like sharing with people, well, I like sharing my excitement. Not everything. I do feel like I am going to jinx myself by talking about it too much. Oh well, I have to try to stick to the mantra "what will be will be." I'm not so sure I can do that. That would interfere with my worrying and as we all know, that just won't do.

I FEEL THE NEED!

I must admit that I get urges every now and then that I simply must indulge. What? Well, let us just say that it involves going into just about any store I see fit and buying! Yeah, yeah some people love to shop. NO! I am weirdly obsessed with it. Every now and then I will look at Jake and say, "I need to shop." It really is a stress reducer for me. I have to do it! Even grocery shopping can cause a little thrill. I abhore the term "Shopaholic" but it could vaguely apply. Embarassingly.

I recently indulged in some shoes. Okay, 3 pairs of shoes. And some clothing and a little something for Jake. The real problem is, if I stave off the urge, I then go into overdrive and spend silly amounts on silly things. 3 pairs of shoes? same shoe, 3 different colors. That's right. I really shouldn't be admitting this. As an avid believer of just being myself, I feel that it would be dishonest to NOT admit this.

Last night I went shopping with my Joy and I truly believe the only reason that I spend under $60.00 at Crate and Barrel is because she was with me. Sure, I do try to reason everything I buy, but I went into overdrive when she was standing next to me. This is why I think I have a problem. I prefer to spend these crazy amounts of money alone. In solitude. That is usually a sign of a problem. I totally would have far more seriously considered buying a whole new set of dishes had she not been there. Thank the Lord she was. I DO NOT NEED A WHOLE NEW PLACE SETTING FOR 12! Maybe that will be the trick-taking someone with me who will not encourage me to buy everything I like. Jake is so wonderful he doesn't try to stop me unless it would hurt us financially. Even then it is half-heartedly as he must like the smile on my face after I buy something fabulous.

I could go on and on but I am already sure that many of you are rolling your eyes at me but really I hope I just made you all laugh at what I call lovingly 'one of my quirks.'

New Year, New Thoughts

Yes! It is 2007 and not a damn thing is different than 2006. Not really shocking, of course, as it was only a date change at midnight. Nothing else really changes at that stroke of the clock, yet everyone seems to have renewed hope. I must say, I hope I am one of those people at some point in my life.

Let me explain, I do not mean any of this in a pessimistic way. I only mean that just because it is suddenly 2007 doesn't mean that things are different or that I suddenly have a new attitude or something. A change in date doesn't spurn that inside of me.

There are certainly plans for the upcoming year that I hope come to fruition. Jake and I plan on moving, starting a family, finishing school or nearing it anyways. So yes, 2007 does bring new possibilities but that is just a coincidence.

I went to visit Devon and my nephew today. She is doing lots better but still sore. Jack looks great and is eating a ton. That boy is destined to be a big man. I can't wait until he starts scooting around and getting into trouble. That is one adorable quality I love in kids. Troublemaking. I seem to revel in it. Maybe because my parents enjoyed it in my brothers and myself when we were growing up. We were never rewared for being bad, but very quickly after we had been punished we would hear them regailing their friends with the stories of their 'bad' kids. They would always be laughing and trying to mask their amusement from us but we knew.

On Monday my classes start again and then Jake begins his a couple days later. The stress of school resumes but I am surprisingly anxious for it to start. School somehow makes me feel like I am living. I guess I am just one of those odd birds who loves to learn and craves it. Maybe that is the new lame excuse I can use when family members ask me when I am finishing school. Ha-pretty flimsy, but true. Otherwise, I doubt I would be planning on grad school immediately and then hopefully getting my PHd one day. We'll see. For now, I really love finding out why things are and don't intend to stop!

Whew, tons of babbling today. I must have been storing up.